Saturday, January 29, 2005
I remember back in sec sch, i tot being involved in martial arts was the best. Everyone looked up to ya... probably u get gals swooning over ya.. well known and respected. Yea, i was tinkin like tat everytime. Tats y i always wanted to spar wid Ken... Ken was back then, like the master of evrythin. JKD, TKD, White Crane and Muay Thai. I tot beating him would make me even more powerful...
haha. i was a fool to go agst an experienced fighter since childhood. The first time I sparred wid Ken, i had a blisterin headache and a sore arm. But I didnt care. i kept on wantin to sparr wid em, other fighters too. Like Calvin and Hong Shern, TKD and Karate. Haha, a real foo'. No matter how many times I sparred wid Ken, i ended up gettin beaten and floored. Last yr, I had the nastiest injury of all. A kick to ma balls.. and after that, a real lecture from Ken. About wad martial arts is all about...
Its not for the respect, the glory and the honor. Its the ability to be more spiritual, be tougher and most impt, TO PROTECT ur loved ones and frens ard u. It was only after 2 yrs, after numerous sparring wid Ken and ma other frens, i realised it.. i realised why they were annoyed by my constant pleading to spar.. i realise the foolishness of it all. The unnecessary injuries I had and the stupid time wasting shit..
Yes sparring makes a fighter experienced.. but its during the sparr in it, im totally afraid. I've mentioned it before. What if the fighters get caught in the adrenaline, they forget that they are juz sparrin and they go out all out? What if they were frens, and no longer after it? What about the long term injuries suffered after the spar? What could happen? There are numerous possibilities... and these make me afraid...
Im sorrie for wad I did. I admit, I was dumb.. I didnt noe wad the heck i was doing. Im sorrie i asked that stupid question.. Im sorrie for the whole thing. I dun like to sparr, because of all the reasons... I now realise how Ken felt.. how ma other frens felt.. I dun mean to be mean or anythin.. but I juz dun wan to be involved in this thing called sparring.. yes, it may make one more experienced and skilled and other things.. but the past has gone for me..
Juz like u, im into martial arts because i want to protect everyone. includin y'all. I want to be strong to be able to protect myself and everyone... to defend... evryone. My family, my frens, my church mates, evryone... this is now my purpose in learnin MA. Im not in for the respect.. tats y Hari is fuckin dumb. 'Respect first, safety later.' Tell me about it when u cant do it...
Again, i would like to say im really sorrie.
