<Gonna do this on my own...>

Sunday, February 27, 2005

tis reactin badly these days. when i lie down on ma bed, theres a sharp pain on the lower part. i straighten up, its gone. i relax, its there...
i cant sit straight. im always bendin when im sittin down. when i straighten, i bend once again 5 seconds later. and as i remain in that position, I find myself bendin and bendin more and more...
i cant stand straight. evrytime i try to resist bendin, i feel pain on my lower back....
i did pushups yesterday. evrytime i lower myself, my back droops a lil. in the end, i am not doin a proper pushup.
i try to sit myself straight on a chair. but i find myself bendin and bendin, towards the screen or towards my work...
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im very afraid....
this will affect me in many ways. includin my love for martial arts.