<Gonna do this on my own...>

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

crying...

i used to think it was a sign of weakness, since i was told that boys never cried, but over the years, i came to know that it was ok to cry.
Its a mechanism for u to release ur emotions, sad or joyous feelings..

But i dont think i have ever teared bcos i was happie. when i'm happie, i will show it clearly.
when im sad....

I tink the last time i cried was last year. over some dumb bitch... haiz..
and the last time i truely cried both physically and mentally...
was back in secondary school. over an incident in the rainy storm.

im someone who never cries easily. u may hurt me by saying insultful things to my face or my family, I'll just go over there and beat the livin shit outta u. Im not the kid i was back then...
but even when i told myself to be strong...
one can never be strong all the time.
it will take something of a big magnitude to turn the wheels of emotions in me...

and when they do...
i'll let the tears flow and release all my sorrow away...
and when i stop..

i guess it feels good. that evrythin that was once boiled up is gone.